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you will become the slave of insanity. You will abandon logic, negate time, and crave instant-gratification. You will do this knowingly, compulsively, unable to stop, time and time again, because you are the slave of “insanity”, trying the same thing twice expecting the same result, obeying the darkest parts of yourself. You will merge with those parts.
Every now and then, you stop, use logic, perspective, and have a small moment of insight in which you see the bigger picture. However, because of the repetition of this activity, it has become an acquired skill/taste/function, and the window of opportunity is small, and you will not be able to stop. The demon may always be there. It matters not whether it exist, it matters whether you give in, if you listen, obey, and merge. That is all that is needed.
Other than the ego, my most influential adversary is my howling sexuality.
You must choose, time and time again, to not give in. As you developed the taste, you must develop awareness of choice, which fosters the ability to choose. This will reverse the side effects of all the times you didn’t choose. Things will improve, things will become more positive, and you will have more creative power, if you look at the larger picture. Instead of giving in to a moment, give in to eternity. Exit the domain of pleasure, pain, and enter the domain of stillness. Positive, motivated movement.
You will fail forever until you learn that you will never succeed if you continue to fail.
That is the purpose of failure. Recognize that failure is meant to be short-lived, temporary. That is the essence of the experience. Honor the present moment. Learn that this life is the only one you have. Realize your purpose. You have been given a breath(wind) and a body(earth, water, fire). Give back to the Source. A will has put you here. Don’t forget that.