Hi everyone.
I was recently accepted to SVA (School of Visual Arts), for Cartooning. I also applied to Pratt and MICA, but now that I got into SVA, I don't care about those two anymore...and I mailed out my application for RISD this week. My Mom(and my Art Teacher)really want me to go there, but I <3 SVA. I won't know until April what RISD's decision is, so.
and I am unsure if I should apply to Cooper Union...which involves spending my time doing their hometest. 6 visual assignments
My Mom did some research and to it sum up, she told me CU is intense. (From what she said)it's a place where all you do is ART. And the social situation is humble compared to other schools('cause they only except a few students). But with that(a Cooper Union education), you will be a great artist 'cause all you do is art.
As I'm typing this, I don't think I should pre-maturely close any doors. I should keep all of my options open. and apply

Pray for me

I'm surprised I have watchers.
That reminds me, I only have one piece in my gallery because at the time I made this new account I was only happy with one piece of art. That has changed, and I am looking forward to uploading pieces from my portfolio


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and anyone else you may need it.

you will become the slave of insanity. You will abandon logic, negate time, and crave instant-gratification. You will do this knowingly, compulsively, unable to stop, time and time again, because you are the slave of “insanity”, trying the same thing twice expecting the same result, obeying the darkest parts of yourself. You will merge with those parts.
Every now and then, you stop, use logic, perspective, and have a small moment of insight in which you see the bigger picture. However, because of the repetition of this activity, it has become an acquired skill/taste/function, and the window of opportunity is small, and you will not be able to stop. The demon may always be there. It matters not whether it exist, it matters whether you give in, if you listen, obey, and merge. That is all that is needed.
Other than the ego, my most influential adversary is my howling sexuality.
You must choose, time and time again, to not give in. As you developed the taste, you must develop awareness of choice, which fosters the ability to choose. This will reverse the side effects of all the times you didn’t choose. Things will improve, things will become more positive, and you will have more creative power, if you look at the larger picture. Instead of giving in to a moment, give in to eternity. Exit the domain of pleasure, pain, and enter the domain of stillness. Positive, motivated movement.
You will fail forever until you learn that you will never succeed if you continue to fail.
That is the purpose of failure. Recognize that failure is meant to be short-lived, temporary. That is the essence of the experience. Honor the present moment. Learn that this life is the only one you have. Realize your purpose. You have been given a breath(wind) and a body(earth, water, fire). Give back to the Source. A will has put you here. Don’t forget that.

free of the pain-body, the joy of Being.

Prior to this journal entry, a friend from somewhere online sent me a deadly sins quiz for fun. I did it and my sin was "sloth", but I didn't think that was true...

I have undeniably become someone who you could call "lazy". It's really sad and pathetic...and now that I think about it, this period of utter inactiveness in so many areas of my life started soon after I returned back to America from Japan. I went to Japan this past spring break for one week, and it was a life changing experience...
After coming back I had a period of 'artistic bliss'. I drew a folder full of pinups and sketches that have yet to be completed(but I liked them). And I drew each of them very soon after the proceeding one. Their incompleteness represents something...And that incompleteness has seeped from the paper into my everyday life. It's depressing. But I don't want to use DeviantART as my place to wine and moan about personal problems when I haven't done anything to subdue those problems.

I'll let you know when my life gets back on track.























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